I'm not sure what i am feeling for the past few days. The thing is this day came to quickly.
I never expected anyone of them, to file for a contract nulification. Not after all this, not after winning awards and promising to prove themselves to be better to us, to show us a better side.
It must have been hard for Kris to come to this. To fight for himself, his own rights. He wants to chase his dreams - just like anyone else.
As a fan, i will support his decision, wish for him to be happy. But it's hard to not see him performing anymore. When we look back at exo performing songs like growl, wolf and mama, he will no longer be there. He will no longer be sing his lines. It hurts because I haven't been to their first solo concert yet. Complaining about no money is me, but i shouldn't have because you never what is going to happen.
He left before their first world tour. He left before he saw the whole galaxy outside Korea/Japan.
He left before rest of the fans from the rest of the world could see the twelve of them stand on that stage i always dreamt of.
He left before i could meet him face-to-face. Even if you meet him at airport, he will no longer be known as EXO's leader - Kris. But as the one who left EXO, as himself, Wu Yi Fan.
I know it's selfish of me to say this - i wish he never left. I wished he stayed and talked it out with the fucking company who has money but does not shit with the fucking money their artists earns.
I wanna to see them on stage as OT12. But you know it'll never happen. Just like Super Junior and DBSK.
This must be what the fans has felt. The emptiness of not seeing all the member on stage.
I wanna scream and hit him and tell Kris that he should cancel the lawsuit and get his ass back to exo.
But i can't because I'm no one.
I'm just a fan who loves exo. And exo doesn't even know me.